Mood-disorder medications are not like a round of penicillin that you take to get rid of a bug. If you choose to go on one it is quite likely that you will remain on them. I take them for my well-being and mental health, much like a diabetic takes insulin. I don't know if I have ever heard anyone ask a diabetic if they really need insulin. We all do whatever it is we need to get through the day. I don't judge you for having an evening night-cap, so don't be so quick to point fingers.
Don't get me wrong, anti-depressants have some interesting side effects to start out with, and it can take weeks before they subside. We are all unique in our illnesses and what works for me, may not work for you. It takes a lot of patience and commitment to find the medication regiment that is right for you. I am telling you, once the weirdness wears off you may just feel like a new person. I recently started a new one for me and the first few weeks left me with dry mouth, feeling wobbly, nausea, teeth clenching, drowsiness and just a general feeling of being off.....but I am happy to report that I stuck with it, the side-effects have subsided, and I am feeling great!
The list of the benefits of finding the right medication for me are countless. For the first time in years I feel like a girl I once knew in high school. I have reconnected with old friends. I am more physically active. I drink less. I laugh more. I sleep less. I am more confident. I have never felt more positive.
I am no doctor, this is only my own personal experience, and I can't begin to tell you what is right for you. Do what feels right for you. With all the negative feedback out there when it comes to medication I thought it was important to stand up and add a positive review to the mix. As I said, medication may have saved my life.